It is unfortunate that I have a track record of making the worst decisions, it means that I can not trust my own feelings. After a nice long chat with Salv this arvo I am in a strange mood. I know what I should do, I even know that I haven’t any real choice. It comes down to one thing: Am I more afraid of going ahead with what must be down and facing the consequences, or of doing nothing at all and facing the consequences?