Maybe its me?

I don’t smile, I don’t com­mit, I don’t engage.
There is a hole in my soul the longs to be filled, yet I don’t know how to reach out and find what I long for.
Am I going to old up a lone­ly old man.
Worse yet; is this my oath sim­ple because it is the eas­i­est? Least effort, least risk, least chance, least con­fronta­tion?