Sometimes I feel like I’ve already missed the chance before I even had one. Chat to someone online, things seem to be going well, but then life gets in the way, have to go away for Easter and such things, and with one thing and another, for various reasons, you never get around to meeting up until all you have is a less and less frequent chat online and then that stops soon too. And I’m left not knowing what I did wrong.
Tag: personal
Maybe its me?
I don’t smile, I don’t commit, I don’t engage. There is a hole in my soul the longs to be filled, yet I don’t know how to reach out and find what I long for. Am I going to old up a lonely old man. Worse yet; is this my oath simple because it is the easiest? Least effort, least risk, least chance, least confrontation?
Finish something
Had my performance review today.
Was mostly fine, but was told “Your very good at starting things, but not so good at finishing.”
Wouldn’t bother me so much if it wasn’t so very, very true.
Bugger.
Shinny day in the city
Wow, it’s a nice warm sunny day in Sydney. Off to do some shopping and the to vote.
iPhone
Yay, my first post from my shinny new black iPhone!
Fire next door?
So, I got home yesterday evening to find my little dead-end street full of fire trucks, turns out my little street can only hold 3 fire trucks.
Fearing the worst, I walked up and realised that one of the neighboring buildings was the cause of all the interest. Yay… I guess… I suppose I really should think about fire, insure my stuff, protect my data…
Pink Eye
So, I got pink eye for some reason… you wouldn’t believe how many people make zombie jokes…
Work
It just hit me, my years at school really did scare me a lot more than I have previously thought. Whilst at school I went and did the obligatory work experience thing, and did not have a good time, got scolded for things that I had no way of know better than, given the wrong sort of work to do, shouted at, ignored, and various other unpleasantnesses. All of this is old news, and although an unpleasant situation to be in for 2 weeks… it was better than being at school. However today I occurred to me that this really did ingrain in my mind a level of fear of the workplace. Not work itself, sure I’m lazy, but I get things done. No, fear of the atmosphere, the people, the mentality of the workplace. This of course shaped other decisions and was very likely being some really dumb things I did. Bombing out of Uni… twice… for example.
Old bloginess
Reading though some of my old blog entries and it seems I had a lot more to say about nothing particular at all than I do now. I’m sure that means something… probably that I’m just not thinking enough in creative ways lately. I need to do something about that. Time to get myself into the habit of posting on here, posting anything, posting everything, just posting.
Eureka
We swear by the Southern Cross to stand truly by each other and fight to defend our rights and liberties.
-Ballarat Reform League 1854