Sorddin

I’m gonna blame society and my own laziness. But I ain’t fixing them. (Well, maybe if you ask nice, but don’t go expecting perfection just because I’m a Virgo.)

Recent entries have had a bit of a down tone to them, so I thought I’d do something more uplifting, and my city never seems to fail me on this. Here are three pics that I took today (yeah, okay, a bit of photoshop work was done to them too, so?). The Sydney Habour Bridge. I find it fascinating, the way importance is place on such functional structers. Yet for a long time this little bridge was the tallest thing in Sydney, visible from most anywhere in the greater Sydney area. Now however there are many other buildings and structers that dwarf the bridge, yet even though I never lived in a time when the bridge dominated the city it still has that presence in my mind. A few years back I walked across it with Alex and a friend of his (Flatters I think his name is). Anyway, Alex isn’t from Sydney, but Flatters was. Flatters had never walked across the bridge before. For him it has always just been a part of the landscape, nothing special. I wonder why he saw it so very differently to me? Sydney Opera House. Although I rarely go and see performance there, and have never seen a opera there, its a building that I can’t imagine Sydney without. Its just such a wrong sort of structure, kind of Sydney sticking its finger up at nature and the world. I like the shot, when I took it I didn’t think much would come of it, I like to act the tourist when looking at my city, and this just seemed another tourist shot. But the two boys in the center seem to be the focus instead of the setting. As always, photos are more interesting if there are people in them.

I’m sorry, I thought you were someone else. You don’t think so??? Well, look at it from this point of view. You’re riddled with self doubt and anxieties, constantly worried about not behaving the right way, or say the right thing, or generally attracting too much attention. And then someone walks up and says: “You’re boyfriend has just passed out on the dance floor.” You don’t have a boyfriend (you’ve never had a boyfriend), and your about to mention this to the stranger when he then says “I’m sorry, I thought you were someone else.” After that he wonders off never to be seen again. And of all things your actually feeling happy about this. Sure there’s a poor guy passed out on the dance floor somewhere, but that ain’t your problem. Your just thrilled that you look like someone that has a boyfriend, maybe there is still a chance. If you could be mistaken for a person with the lifestyle you want, maybe then it is still within reach. For contentment just add one new gadget. I’ve borrowed a digital camera from a friend, and now that I’ve actually had a chance to play with it I’m falling in love with photography all over again. Its like all the things of photography I’ve always love, with none of the hassles. Okay, not true, there are new, different hassles, but its faster.

As has often been the case of recent weeks, I once again find myself sitting in bed at a very late hour with my trusty laptop (named Lukas) on my lap. Not tired, and having run out of Interesting-Things-To-Look-At-On-The-Net(TM) several hours ago, I end up back at my new weblog. This all started out as an experiment. Ricahrd wanted some help setting up his Greymatter site a few weeks back and that got me looking into it. I had a bit of a play, checked out what it could and couldn’t do and even spent a bit of time making the main page look not crap. So, now I’ve got this weblog, and not the foggiest idea what to do with it. I am thinking that this, or some heavily re-worked version, could be the new Broadsword… but I’m not sure if the sword still has a place in the world. Anyway, is anyone else starting to fear they might always be lonely?

This afternoon I went into town. I had the vague idea of catching a bus to one of the extremes of my weekly ticket. I ended up at La Parouse. There isn’t much out there, walk along a beach in the dark, had a vegetable samosa and came back.

It’s now early saturday morning, soon I should get some sleep (I’ve heard that its good for the mind/body and soul). And the weekend looks a little busy, not a lot, but I’m betting there wont be much free time to do ‘nothing’ in. So what did I get up to over the past week??? Monday saw me finishing up my latest IA chapter, which was a lot of fun actually. I hadn’t written in the IA’s since a big difference of opinion between myself and one of the other authors (someone who I’d introduced to the IA’s in the first place so that felt like a personal attack, but thats a matter for another post). As always, the chapter I submitted was finished at the last minute, with lost of rushing and scenes being cut because time was against me. However it has been done, but strangely it hasn’t yet been published. Mildly concerned about that. Tuesday I can’t remember, that’s probably a problem, but I’m not all that concerned. I do remember watching Buffy, the series is nearing its end and things are getting exciting. Now I’ve got it, I meet up with Rich at the Newtown, we had a drink and then went and had Pizza for dinner. Wednesday was just the usual stuff, job hunting and so forth. Thursday I went over to Salv’s Uni and meet up with him for lunch. I enjoyed doing that, its always nice to do something a little different. He showed me around his uni and stuff. Later on Thursday night, I went to dinner with the family at Barbara’s place, it was good to do that, as I don’t seem to see her much anymore. I guess there is sometime there about siblings, once they move out of home their lives are no longer FORCED to join up. Friday, spent some time coding my new Open GL screen saver, I seem to have a knack of starting projects that a bit ambitions, but its coming along nicely. Went again to Salv’s uni, bumped into Christian and spent the evening fixing problems on Salv’s computer that weren’t really there.